I start my new job in a couple of hours. I didn't sleep worth a damn last night. Naturally, I assume it was nerves. I'm sure the heat had something to do with it as well. Although it got as low 65deg last night (guessing, of course), inside it likely didn't drop below 75. Still, I'm sure it was mostly nerves. My party line has been that I'm both eager and anxious to start my new job. I'm sticking with it. I was concerned with my lack of anticipatory madness, but I guess it was just building quietly. Funny, really. I do so much worse in front of people. When other people are involved, I get plenty nervous, but left to my own devices, I just ride the river. A friend once told me about a dream he had where we were stuck in a little row boat going down a set of nasty rapids toward a waterfall that seemed to drop for miles. He was freaking out of course, because there was no way out and no way to survive. I, on the other hand, was just sitting there enjoying the ride, perfectly calm. I kept telling him we'd be fine.*Convincing argument, I'm sure. When we came to the lip of the waterfall and went over, the boat just sort of floated off the edge like a cartoon, then slowly drifted downward. A perfectly serene trip to the eventual bottom. We were fine after all. I took the dream as a compliment, regarding it as a testiment to my easy going nature. I often consider others' opinions of me to be more accurate a character analysis than my own. See yourself in whatever light you like, but if people think you're a jerk, chances are, you're a jerk. Time for some breakfast. I hope my brain works today. Word on the street is that limited sleep can impare your ability to think clearly. It's 5:40am.*Damn it's early! I need to be there at 8. I'm nearing the waterfall. Let's see what happens next.